October, with all her glory in the leaves a changing and writing for 31 days straight has taught me a few things.
- the leaves will change and beauty will appear whether i’m ready for it or not. i can not press pause until i’ve time to take a walk or take a picture. so i need to press pause on something else and take that walk or that picture.
- i am not able to publish everyday and run. i didn’t get out for a run or walk the entire month. the topic i chose didn’t lend itself to simple words or brief posts. writing everyday was exactly what i needed, i’ve known that for some time and the challenge to post gave me the motivation to make it happen. but in dedicating time for writing i let exercise slip away. i’m entering into November with eyes looking for what it looks like to do both.
- i’ve more loyalty to everyone else around me than i have to myself. i pushed myself every day to publish because i said i would, even if it meant neglecting my home, family, or self. i already knew this-remember this summer how i wouldn’t quit on my daughter, but if she hadn’t been in the equation, i would’ve quit on myself. entering the 40’s a few years ago i realized how much more effective it was to work with myself instead of against myself. since i know this loyalty thing to be true, i’m praying over how i can work within it to both write and exercise-two things that are specifically for me.
- reading good authors can usher in fear and super strong temptation to quit writing. reading good authors also ushers in inspiration and strong courage to write. it is a real battle for me. sometimes i have to abstain from reading until after i’ve written. other times i need to read so that i have courage to write. i can’t predict one from the other, except that i’ve grown in my ability to sense the stirring of either fear or courage and respond accordingly.