One of my volunteers standing in the kitchen says to me;
“shall i put the strawberries in the fridge?”
And i walk away shaking my head at the both of us. If she thinks the strawberries should go in the fridge, then just put them there-why ask me for permission? And me? Why when the question comes my way do i find myself stuck completely unsure of the answer? It’s the simplest question ever. But, of course. i must begin thinking about how i just discovered that tomatoes are better if not refrigerated…hmm…is that true about strawberries? i don’t know. What. In. the. World. Is. Wrong. With. Me? Just pick an answer-yes or no-it doesn’t matter! It’s just strawberries for crying out loud!
There are bigger decisions to make this week and bigger areas of leadership than the strawberries. And i seem to fumble along the same in all the scenarios. It’s all a bit much.
Driving home i ponder who’s brilliant idea it was anyway to put me in charge.
It was Him-the One who names the stars.
if you are obeying only when it makes sense, you’re refusing to admit the wisdom differential between you and God. That’s not obedience, that’s agreement. -Gary Glover
When i’m asking Him to make sense of the assignment, i want to both understand the wisdom in it and see tangible fruit in the outcome. To get to really see that it ‘worked!’
And this is a joy-sucker
Because there are way too many variables in life to insure or predict outcomes of anything.
And if my satisfaction and joy come solely from results? Than the lack there-of will suck the joy right away. And if results happen? Then my joy will be resting on shaky ground.
And as to making sense of the assignment? That for me often means agreeing that i am the one for the job. and if i lose sight of my dependence, then my joy will be resting on shaky ground.
And anyway, the words the Lord continues to whisper to me day in and day out are these:
You don’t know. You don’t need to know.
He’s not asking me for agreement; He’s asking me for obedience….He’s asking me to Trust. Him.
becuse this Trust of Him
is a link to Joy.
To the Joy of simply having obeyed.
It boils down to that whole wisdom differential-
trust of the One who does really know everything.
trust rested on the solid ground of Who God Is and What He has Promised.
For He who promised is Faithful.
And that’s really all i need to know.