about an hours drive from here there is a place that offers hope and healing for those facing homelessness and addiction. their newsletters remind me of the possibility, remind me that Jesus Saves. i need to be reminded….often.
in the morning light the sky is grey and cloudy, my little city full of contrasts. the deep red of the train car and the yellow lights of the mini school bus stand against the snow that has become grey and black. the colors of the houses seem muted with the grey empty trees that tower above them. but as i drive further out towards my son’s middle school i get a glimpse of the mountains. those mountains have ministered to my heavy heart before and today is no different. the entire mountain is shadowed and deep blue…but the snow-capped peaks are glowing. somehow the sun is breaking through the clouds just enough to shine on those peaks. my son’s school is only 2 miles from our house which sits right in the middle of town, yet from that vantage point 2 miles out i can see those sun kissed peaks.
my heart is heavy today over someone i have grown to love caught in the web of addiction and homelessness. the small hope from last night has been crushed under the weight of the phone call this morning. getting a glimpse of those peaks as my son and i wait our turn in the drop off line causes me to catch my breath and i quickly call out ‘l love you, have a good day’ as the tears begin their release. half of me has been listening and engaged as i make the pb&j and get my kids out the door, the other half has been in the depths of prayers reminding myself and my God of His sole Ability and Power.
but truth be told, my heart is full of doubts and hopelessness. i begin to listen to the wondering if Jesus is able to save, if He is able to rescue, if hope is even possible? as i drive back home, those peaks begin to be hidden behind the tall ancient trees, i catch glimpses of them only because i now know to look. but by the time i reach home, they are completely hidden from my view. This world is grey and dark, shadows of addiction and sin and a myriad of problems we all know so well hover. but somewhere the Sun is shining on the mountain peaks. whether i can see it or not.
Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of His great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.
to draw further in: Isaiah 40:26; Romans 7:21-8:39; 2 Peter 3:9; Revelation 12:10-11; all the ‘To Him who is Able…” verses.