the stack of cards is high, the needs heavy. it’s so real right now how powerless we are, both with the lives of those we love and our ability to trust thru it.

cancer, attempted suicide, tragic car accidents, death, surgeries, mysterious illnesses. all these represented in the stack of cards ready to be written and sent out.

what do you say to a mother who lost her son to suicide? what do you say to a mother waiting on her daughter to wake after a tragic car accident? to one wondering how to tell her kids she might be dying?


as i wept and lamented before the One who keeps track of the stars the knock came interrupting. the people on the other side asking what did i know about God’s kingdom?

not to get off topic about those who knock on doors asking what people know about God’s kingdom-but to look a weeping woman in the eye and continue with your planned pitch is infuriating. Jesus would not be pleased is all i’m saying.

in our powerlessness, in our loss for words, in our questioning and carrying burdens too heavy for our small muscles; this is what i know about God’s kingdom:

Jesus wept.

Jesus overcame.

Jesus keeps track of the stars-they are named.

we are more important to Him than the stars.

Jesus will not faint.

He will not grow weary.

Jesus welcomes our tears, our fists pounding on His chest, our weeping. He holds us with a steadfastness that we can hardly fathom.

Jesus gives strength.

He has the power to answer.

Jesus will help His people.

He never lets go.

My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?
Why are You so far from my deliverance
and from my words of groaning?
My God, I cry by day, but You do not answer,
by night, yet I have no rest.
But You are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
But You, Lord, don’t be far away.
My strength, come quickly to help me.

Therefore since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us hold onto Grace.

To draw further in: Psalm 22; Hebrews 12 and 13