what i am really talking about is another place of surrender.
there have been many before, and will be many to come. it is all a giving up. giving up my agenda. my expectations. my plans. and it involves losses. and unless those losses are honestly grieved-i can’t move on. i am pretty sure that is a psychological fact for the entire human race. i dare you – prove me wrong. and anyway, grieving involves simply being honest about how i really feel.
…..and the question ever before me; “is God real… or not? does He love me… or not? is He for me… or not?”
…..and the real answer-it is an ambivalent one.
i surrender to Your plan Lord, help me overcome my holding back!
i trust You Lord, help me overcome my fear!
i am thankful Lord, help me overcome my ingratitude!